28. syyskuuta 2010

I feel like being all the time so tired. I could fall asleep when ever it's like 5 minutes break in the lesson. In the morning I could just push the snooze button how many times ever. I can be in the lessons: I can dance, act, sing and play the piano and when I don't remember that tiredness I'm fine. I enjoy what I'm doing. But then again when I need to wait even for couple of minutes that feeling is back. Still I see life really beautiful and enjoy it. I think I just would need holiday for couple of days. But I won't have it in next one and half weeks. 

Sunday evening I went to the Chapel. I tried to make a choreography for Wednesday's dance lesson (here's my music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN-VG1uvNj4). I worked for it about 2 hours and in the end I just needed to run back home Haltiala and grab my camera. What I saw was setting sun behind the old window and plant which was (and still is) on the windowsill. 

I saw that and in the same time I saw "sad but hopeful fairy sitting in the windowsill." I love that! 

At the moment this photo collage tells maybe quite much about me. About how I'm feeling with everything: myself, life, other people, nature around me... How I'm just feeling. That's why I want to share this image here. 

This isn't an awesome image but..... but. 

Blue matrjosjkas above the collegevillage. 
(I kind of know that's not a compound but I think you understand why I wrote it like that) 

Serja's scarf dancing! I loved it and I've got lots of awesome pictures but I choose this one because you can't see her face. Just before the lessons she (and Kerttu) was dancing with the scarves and that was pretty fun. Of course I wasn't dancing because I needed to take the photos!

And then: I've got awesome news! Lets start from yesterday.
Yesterday night I had a dream that I was walking in my host-family's house. Everything was different but still same and I was crying because I was back there and I missed so much to be. When I woke up from that dream I don't know what I felt - quite empty would probably describe it most. I was thinking of it and then after school I checked my mails. And what was there: a birthday card from all my friends in the church I used to go during my exchange student year in England. I recognized my friend Debzz's handwriting and opened the envelope as soon as I got back home. There it was: everyone's birthday wishes and names in the same card. I started to cry - I miss so much to be back in Bristol and especially in the church. 

Well... Today in the morning I was talking about it and my teacher just said "probably you could go to visit England on autumn's half term." I had been thinking about that before and in the break I went to IT-class for checking the flights. And I found so cheap ones. And then I made a phone call to my mom! And I noticed I'd have enough money. And there it was! I sent text message to one of my friends in England if I could stay with them and now I'm waiting for the answer. It'll be quite sure I'll go to England. In a month! Do I even have to tell more? 

I think God made this opportunity to me. Hopefully it'll come true. Now in last days so many friends of mine from England have been leaving comments or starting chats with me in Facebook and that makes me feel more like I really want to go to England! I don't even know what to say - I'm just too ....... excited-happy-nervous-messedup!! ♥ 

25. syyskuuta 2010

Okay, I haven't been writing my blog in ages - again. But I've got good reasons for that (well I think they're good). In the first place: I've been so busy with my studying because we'll have our premiere on next Friday. And then the second reason is that our Internet is working like never ever so I haven't been able to add any photos and then I didn't want to write either. Still it's so slow and I hate it. 

In last couple of days I've been really thinking about my blog. I think most of my followers are still from Finland (so they could understand Finnish text) and it's much easier to me write in Finnish. So I've been thinking to change the language back to Finnish because then I'd enjoy more the writing. BUT just today was the last time I noticed how my English is all the time getting worse. So that changed my mind a little bit and now I don't know what to do. Write in Finnish or in English? If you have some kind of opinion please leave a comment and let me know what you think that I should do. Thank you! (: 

And then: AUTUMN IS HERE! I absolutely l o v e it. I love the colours and the light - the light is so special when it's the autumn. And in this autumn I've seen so much cute red mushrooms (I hate that word "mushroom" in English - it's much cuter in Finnish: sieni). I haven't been doing a lot of photographing because I've been just so tired and lazy to go out an take photos. What would help is that I'd have someone of my friends who loves photographing too. Anyway, here's still some of the "autumn-photos" I've taken in last week. 

Look at that sieni! Don't you love it? I took some of the glasses which we're going to use in our play. Fits me pretty well, huh? (not.......) 

Last Friday (a week ago) when I was just about walking to my train and going home it started to rain so much and my roommate Serja and I got an awesome idea: we went out to take some photos. I repeat: it was so hardly raining and both of us were still a little bit ill. But the photos are fun. 

Serja jumping in the puddle with her lovely wellies! 

Serja collecting some lovely autumn coloured leaves. 

And Serja putting a leaf to the puddle to swim. 

And when I finally got back home on Friday there was so lovely coloured clouds behind my window and I tried to take picture about them but I couldn't really. Still I like this pictures, lots of moooood. 

And next photos are from yesterday when me, Iina and Olja went to shop buy some food but before we took some pictures (there is lots of them but I put just this ones where I am because I think Olja or Iina wouldn't really like that ones where they are if I put them into my blog) 

I laid down in the leaves. PEACE! 

Haha, I'm not so beautiful when laughing but this picture is full of joy so I just wanted to add it. 

Lovely Olja and not-so-lovely me...... 

So I'm having good but busy time. Sometimes I'm so tired that I don't even feel good anymore but it's just sometimes and when I take some good night sleep that feeling is gone. I'm still thinking so much my life and sometimes that isn't easy but I'm getting there that I feel better and I'm dealing with myself and who I am. 

I could write lots but I think this is enough for now. 

13. syyskuuta 2010

Sorry I haven't been making entries in a long time. My life today is a bit more busy than it was before and I'm all the time doing so much. And to be honest I don't even want to be in contact in to "outside world" so much when I'm having such a good time in here.

To tell something I put some photos from last week when we had tour around some parts of Finland with our musictheatre group. We had a short clip which we acted in 3 different places: Aulanko, Ylivieska and Pieksämäki. We spent so much time together and I think our group is even closer than it was before.

So the tour was about sitting in car for long times, setting up and unsetting (is that even a real word haha) scenes, playing the scene and having fun between but we were so tired (well I was) almost all the time so the jokes was stupid - which made them so much more fun! The best one came from Iina:
"Kiinnostaako Raamattu?
"No ehkä vähän."
(in English: "Are you interested in the Bible?" "Maybe a little bit.")
You may ask what was so fun in that but I can't explain it! But we had our green t-shirts which had text on it ("Kiinnostaako Raamattu?").

Now I'm feeling really good about being back in Ryttylä and studying here with all this awesome people. That week and tour was really good to us and I'm happy I did it. It wasn't easy and especially the performing was difficult to me but I did it and I know it wasn't too bad! We're good! (and a little ad: if your church or school wants us to perform please contact!)

And then to the pictures. There's no pictures from the play because I was acting so I couldn't take photos. But some others.

In this first one you can see the awesome Kiinnostaako Raamattu -t-shirts. Enjoy! (there's Iina and me in this photo)

This is from the cottage where we spent 2 nights. The girl is Olga who is so lovely! I loved that place too, it showed me really concrete way how God's work is perfect and how creative He is!

I hate this picture because of the butterfly. I think the picture is nice but the butterfly................ If someone didn't know I'm so scared of butterflies!

The lovely campfire! We roasted marshmallows! And it was so dark around everywhere because we were middle of nowhere in the forest but then there was our marshmallow fire!

Hihi, lovely mushroom which Iina found!!

At the moment everything's well and we keep doing our play which will be about 40mins long in the end. I'm a bit ill so I'm not doing that well because I'm feeling so bad about all the time. I can't get very much sleep because my nose doesn't let me breathe!

Now I really need to get some sleep. Hope you're still liking to read my blog even if I'm not writing so often. Hope you all are well! How are all of you?